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I read some pictures of the works of a Japanese artist just now (TIP 1:"read"but not "see",if you want to pretend that you're not only amateur,then use it. I used to teach my dad how to fake professional in front of the painting work---stand closer and closer,which means you're concentrating on the technical skills about DETAILS),and I didn't get what I felt like,because I just read some chinese pattern before reading her works.

I underestimated the value of chinese traditional culture (mainly in the painting) years ago. I found chinese ancestor were so amazing and modern actually,and you can find similar elements in many masterpiece.The Japanese artist is not master,maybe good at something,I'm not sure she ever read what I read, but I found the same construction in the works which was created million years ago.

So what's is the point?what is eyes of artists?I can't get my point now...

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The pessimist says:"Why the life is so hard?!"

The optimist says:"It would be harder..."

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(1) Conversation between my friend and I, got her message in the morning: She—How're you doing?

Me—Fucking bored.(I was really in the bad mood at that moment, Sleeping is better than wasting time at least. )

She—It's impossible to have a meaningful day everyday, close your eyes and you would better stand it to get used to it.

Me—What I'm worried is "get used to".

She—EVERYONE does that.

(2) Conversation between my colleague, I asked him first:

Me—Why we have to inform the embassy when the agent invite the galleries to attend our exhibition?

He—Are you kidding, you really don't know?!

Me—No, I don't.

who was more awkward now, he must thought where I am from, maybe it's common sense for most people, I'm sorry that was not me.

(3) The similar conversation with a leader who worked on cultural exchange for many years.

Me—Why I can't get the British accent, because I watched too many Hollywood films?! poisoned by the people of United States.

He—You're honest, I can't get their accent either. (then he began to talk about something happened in a country in South Africa )

Me—What is that? Never heard of that country

He—You're honest, I really like your attitude, some people always like to pretend that they know everything.

I wanted to tell him that I really want to pretend to know something sometimes if I know how to , but I didn't think he would get what I mean.

(4) leader, colleague and me

Me—Hi, leader, you had your hair cut off, let me see if its cool.

Colleagu—See, leader, this little comrade doesn't know how to respect the old man, should be educated.

Leader—Exactly, will educate her later

I have got my excuse if he tried to educate me—I respect everyone in the world, so it doesn't matter to tell if he's old or young. we're the world ,we're the children".

Bye bye, boring day!

P.S. 7.1.is the birthday of Chinese Communist Party,so everyone in our centre will go to the national museum for the exhibition about the spirit of the party,which called Yan'an spirit will shine forever. It's a free show,free?!I don't think so,my time is not free for this

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My uncle passed away. I’m a little sad, but not much, probably I didn’t use to close to him. I just worried about my grandparents and his daughter, she seems stronger than what I thought, if I were her,I can’t imagine I would be that calm ,especially she didn’t know her father’s death until today just because of the stupid exam for high school.

The most impressive moment about death is not brought by people, but my rabbit—-my most lovely “black and white(my xiaohei and xiaobai)".I bought them in a very cold and windy day in the third year of my college. At first, I liked xiaobai much, he looked like a snowball, and I didn’t like xiaohei a little, because I thought her looked like a mouse. One day, I found xiaohei was very quiet, was her ill? At that moment, I felt so guilty and ashamed of my bias. I was so childish that couldnt help kissing her because I thought I should be punished to get the same virus as the punishment. Luckily, she was healthy, she just liked to lie down. How can I describe xiaohei. She is a true girl —very smart, elegant, quiet with her beautiful eyes. As a “mum", I am very proud of them(maybe they’re not pretty than cat, but cat is not mine), they brought and taught me much…it became a story because of their leaving.

But they’ve gone, xiaohei was first then was xiaobai, i’m not sure if its my mistake, because I had them a shower. Anyway, I could’t take their death, that’s the first time I realized what is death, how can I accept that and if happen that again…, why, how, too many questions, but tears cant save you.

I appreciated my friends who didn’t laugh at my weakness and tears for my rabbits, I looked down on the people who said"come on, they’re just rabbits!

From then on, I started to try to find the truth about death,"The Tibetan book of living and dying"–thanks for teaching me something and at least I knew, death is not that horrible, to dying or living people

I didn’t see my xiaobai off when he left, I couldn’t control myself, and tears is not good for dying people.

I will see you two again if we haven’t finished something.

I’m still trying to find something , the reaction of everything is important, especially in front of your own death.

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I have the right to be lazy at weekend,which means I won’t write anything today.

I have the right to complain at weekend, which means I gotta get back to work and maybe say something rude to my stupid boss without any efficiency.

Look at the beautiful women on the picture,watched this film “intimates"in the morning,described a special Chinese woman group which is vanishing nowadays,I've been in the tears from the begin to the end,beautiful end.love is just love

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Still waters run deep–just remembered a beautiful chinese idiom,not often to use it,maybe that’s why it sounds beautiful,this is jing shui shen liu.(pity cant type in chinese.)

The office life reminded me a novel I read it about 10 years ago that named “chicken feathers fill the ground(I’m so sorry about my translation)".but I still remember the main character said to his wife:"I thought the world is very large when I was young,but now I know actually the world is only made up the people who are around you".

This is a good novel about “routine",your boss,your collegue,your family life with too many little things,its easy to be chained by many meaningless things unconsciously(its difficult to tell which ones are meaningful though…)

No point=musings?

I dont like cat, I just noticed the chain,did you ever see that?The cat is not me,or you or him or her or they?

Just let it go,it’s time to look for the food in the freezer.

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Seems I didn’t get what the weekend means for a long time.When I was at university,the professors didn’t care if it’s weekend unless you handed in your homework on time(always took me long time just because i wanted my work to be “perfect"—-mission impossible though. Most students enjoyed the university life so much,maybe i didnt most of the time).After I graduated, I choose to be a freelancer, so surely there’s no weekend anymore.

But now, I’m trying to understand that the weekend would bring me. I can sleep at anytime I want and no need to worry about the clock alarm will annoy you? I can eat at 2:00 am again? The books are more interesting than usual ?The friends are cuter than what they look like? and I will find I would enjoy more when I’m painting?

All the answers above is YES.

HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND,ENJOY YOURSELF.hmmm…"enjoy yourself",wise phrase.

P.S. I’m listening a song called “clouds river",so there’s a similar pic I took, although I think I focused on the sky at that moment.

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Don’t want to talk too much today,just look at the pictures I drew for the magzines before,they would tell you. Yes,It’s raining now and I’m tired today,I like to listen to the rain though. By the way,I like the first picture,the second one is tooooooo sweet

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In the name of being a so-called artist(i think i am,they just judge it by my major though…),the people didnt feel weird when they saw i was smoking in the conference room. Their prejudice against smokers is just like their prejudice against artists (smoking is a filthy disgusting habit, admin educated me just now) In the name of the exchange of culture, I started to realise it has nothing to do with culture itself ,its just a business. I red the news about ZhangZiYi who was in Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon,.She will be a part of The Venice Film Festival as one of the judge…she?!The typical business…The job on cultural exchange is kind of like the platform which can collect the agent of different ZhangZiYi S.It’s unnecessary to know who or what she is… interesting?I’m still listening and leaning and just want to absorb until the answer jump up in front of me someday.

Don’t think too much, dont draw a conclusion early

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Now is 1:00pm,very quiet in the company. I regret that I forgot to take something interesting. I’m starting to feel sleepy - WELCOME BACK TO THE NORMAL WORLD! From now on, I’m looking forward the coming of 5:00pm.

I’m going to spend this afternoon on the net (have to go to their another department who working on their net ) to check the information of the foreign galleries, yeah, it’s a perfect plan, not only it’s my work should finish but also I don’t want to waste my time in this boring office, and more … ; check something helpful to my website, the works of the different gallery, anyway, out of here(they installed the adsl yesterday, how weird they are, because yesterday is the first day to charge for installing! Maybe they’re rich, although they don’t want to cost money for promotion on this exhibition) !

(didar~~ good melody)

Now is 8:21pm, dear admin, please put down your whip, because i finished editting the pics i took today,eventually

Look at the pictures,follow me please:)

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It’s my first day to work in the OFFICE since when I was born…weird?…Don’t think so,different people own different lives. It reminded me a song I prefer to—-"You think the only people who are people,are the people who look and think like you,but if you…"—-from “colours of the wind".

Had a good day anyway,my cellphone stole too much water to be able to work (ha,I just found my dictionary did it the same way,too thisty?!), I didnt feel sleepy whold day,I concentrated on what i should finish and made fun of new people…Everything is new,although the leading role is human being always…waiting for some stories,maybe it would be alive movie. Thanks for the short messages from my friends…

I will be fine,actually, I dont want to get much used to something, I want to find out more and more something what is ignored.

I just took a picture about some my first-day stuff,a little boring(I am not),you can tell this to the admin who works hard here … By the way,today is “someday"in chinese calendar, from today,daytime will be shorter and shorter

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Name: Lotus Media: Lacquer Painting Size: 60*40cm

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